cruelty.
cheer myself up bad.
I am just a little bit broken.
找到工作的一天。
耶！
I am considering to change the system from solar-based to nuclear-based.
I need to regenerate high spirits from inside!
yes, I am hopeful, still, for a new start.
in the past weeks, sometimes I felt frustrated, sometimes weak. it’s as if I was striving to accomplish something but couldn’t find a way.
everything felt apart.
the heavy snow diminished my desire to go out and breathe in fresh air; the grey sky seemed to be the reflection of my mind, cloudy, a constant low pressure. I am like a solar-panel battery that is low in energy, nothing seems to interest me. nothing to be happy about, and nothing to be sad about. it’s just flat.
but I am still hopeful, for a new year, for amazement.
whether the feeling I have now is temporary or the opposite.
but, on second thought,
aren’t feelings always in flux and never in a permanent state?
sometimes I miss the man whose name sounds like miracle.
